A Trip

Oluwa · Posted: Thu Feb 28, 2008 6:04 pm Post subject: A Trip

Our health is a voyage and every illness is an adventure story - Margiad Evans

Pretti in Pink · Cobra Joined: 12 Mar 2007 Posts: 451 Location: Texas

Now, that's for sure.

rob · Posted: Thu Feb 28, 2008 6:33 pm Post subject:

I enjoy reading your comments and posts Oluwa. Sometimes you are a poet, sometimes a philosopher, and sometimes a comedian. I hope you are doing OK, and not letting IT win.

Oluwa · Posted: Thu Feb 28, 2008 7:51 pm Post subject:

Hi Rob,

I am glad you enjoy. The many faces of me...I think alot. Time alone makes me think, perhaps to much..

As with today, thoughts, thinking, IT has me in a choke hold, strangling my spirit. I come here to gasp for air...I am still breathing.

Your words, our words, everyones words are my air...

Thank you everyone...
Enjoy your night of sleep....
Oluwa

rob · Posted: Thu Feb 28, 2008 8:43 pm Post subject:

I think alot too. And yes, most of the time I think too much. You know, fear is a strange thing, I've had things happen to me in my life that scared me. Drove around in a tank back in my Army days, been shot at a few times, survived a car wreck a few years back. I think about how scared I was, but I knew what I was facing, it was clear cut, and obvious, and I dealt with it. But Lupus, is like this invisible enemy. Like chasing a shadow you can never quite find. IT, has me in a choke hold many days too. In the past I knew how to fight, what to fight, but this.....

It's late, and I'm starting to ramble, so until next time, have a good night.

Oluwa · Posted: Fri Feb 29, 2008 2:39 pm Post subject:

No rambling from you I read, Rob.

In control.
Out of control.
IT dominants them both.
Fear.
I have no physical control.
I have mental control.
Can that be enough.
Thinking too much.
I lose mental control.
So, really do I have any control?

Sun lights the dark.
But not the dark in my thoughts.
Not even a open blind can bring in the light.
Only positve thoughts can open the blind
The blind to brighten my darkened thoughts.

Oluwa.

rob · Posted: Fri Feb 29, 2008 4:29 pm Post subject:

Your words have a surreal, almost dream-like quality. Very nice.

Oluwa · Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 8:24 pm Post subject:

Rob,

Sometimes I think they seem so dark...Like walking into a room and the lights go off. Trying and trying to search for some light. To create a horizon, from the outlines of the furniture...til our eyes adjust.

And how are you today? Venturing out more I read..that is really wonderful. The world is a better experience with all our senses instead of just the eyes and ears, enclosed in four walls behind a door.

Happy Tuesday..it is almost here.

Hugs,
Oluwa
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hatlady · Tiger Joined: 16 Oct 2004 Posts: 809 Location: Illinois

Oluwa, such beautiful poetry. And you have the FATTEST cat I have ever seen as your avatar today!

YOu are so special here, as Rob says, your poetry, your prayers, your thoughtfulness and your hillarity bring so much to our lives. Thank you, friend.
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~"I find hope in the darkest of days, and focus in the brightest. I do not judge the universe." (Dalai Lama)

Oluwa · Posted: Sun Mar 16, 2008 3:49 pm Post subject:

Ah Thank you , Hatlady....you are too kind. Everyone here adds color to my life. You bring a calmness to mine, a homey, warm love when I read you...

That is my fat Pookie Monster...13 years old. I've been asked..."What is it...?''

I've been a bit disconnected lately...at the arms, at the fingers, at the back and oh, in the mind... I feel like I am living a half full life. Pitying upon myself as of late...add opiates in the mix and I literally feel like plastic...

Head Hugs,
Barbie Oh Lu Wah....waaaaaaaaaah. Whiner.

P.S..has Rob gotten his PC fixed?

Rob? Rob?