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Oluwa · Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 12:39 pm Post subject:

Hi Marcia...

Welcome, we look forward to getting to know you too, Marcia

I have read also, like Teriod, with IT(Lupus), no sunshine...no Vitamin D. I would also add being an anorexic probably has doubled the risk of ending up deficient due to your diet. I've retaught myself to associate the word diet, not meaning without food, not being restricted but to associate the word with healthy nutritious food. Do you include any amount of fish, eggs, fortified milk, and cod liver oil in your diet...? Excellent sources of the D...

I am a self recovered anorexic/bulimic...literally spend half my life in the cycle. I am 47 like you. I know hunger. I know discipline. I know control which really is, in an ED world... is out of control.

I was like you. Anything that would cause a weight gain I would not prescribe to it. The prednisone will probably cause weight, the gain will probably cause you stress and an increase in depression. Then it becomes a big vicious circle to control. Like controlling hundreds of plates spinning on poles...

You will have to find a way through it and not around it, which is temporary.

There are no magic words, no ah ha moment to change our thoughts regarding ED as you know. We know the answer, we have the tools, we just have to use them. Stress feeds anorexia and it also feeds IT...

It's hard. I understand. I know.

Keep looking for your wellness. In a book, in a conversation, in your thoughts, in this forum. This forum is a great find...

Hugs,
Oluwa

Marcia · Not So Newbie Joined: 11 May 2008 Posts: 9

Hi Oluwa

Thank you so much for your response, particularly your insights on lupus and anorexia. The foods you mentioned that are sources of Vitamin D I am lack in eating. So that is probably where I have gotten myself into trouble. I have a phobia with dairy so that really hits me hard. Since you have come through anorexia you know the struggle of trying to just do the next right thing. I constantly think I am not doing any harm, but the test prove otherwise. I have had times when my weight is not an issue, I have never been "overweight" but I have been at goal or even at the upper end of my ideal weight range and been fine with it. However, when I get into times of stress or I feel that I am out of control the anorexia goes nuts. I know at age 47 and post menopausal due to a hysterectomy 9 years ago I should expect to be carrying a little extra weight. I KNOW all of this, but somehow I BELIEVE it does not apply to me. I do see a dietitian and a counselor, but I have got to find the answer from within.

Thanks for being so supportive. I have felt very welcome and am very glad I have found this forum.

I see my rheumatologist tomorrow, I will be interested to see what she has to say.

Marcia

Missy · Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 4:25 pm Post subject:

Marcia -

So sorry to jump in late to the conversation, but I wanted to say hi, too!

It never fails to amaze me the wonderful and brave people we have here on this site, all trying to do their best for their bodies and their lives. I see you are another one of them, Marcia, and I think you will find lots of company here!

Welcome!
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Oluwa · Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 7:00 am Post subject:

Marcia...

We, you and I know it isn't about food. It will click for you.

To end an ED it takes a lot of self nagging and who likes to be nagged, eh? Changing our self concept, digging into our minds, the perseverance and making small changes which lead to big changes to overcome an ED. Very hard...a lot of stumbling, back to the old ways..sometimes the old way is easier, eh?

I hope your Rheuma had good things to say today, let us know.

Be well.
Hugs,
Oluwa

Marcia · Not So Newbie Joined: 11 May 2008 Posts: 9

Hi

I got back from the rheumatologist a little while ago. She told me that the swelling was down. I told her I am feeling much better. She did suggest that I go on another med, methotrexate, but said I would have to come in for monthly labs if I took it, so she gave me the option to start that or just wait and see how I continue to do. I told her that I would just wait and see what happens. I have an appointment scheduled for 3 months from today, but if I am having any problems I am to call and get in to see her. I had also lost 4.5 pounds in the three weeks since I saw her last. I have got to get this weight under control. I am headed for disaster if I don't. But it is not about the food. I have got to get to the root of what is driving the anorexia. I have a good therapist but I am one of his first anorexic clients so he has learned from me, not that there is anything wrong with that, but sometimes I feel like a guinea pig.

I just want to thank you all so much for your support and your welcomes. I am looking forward to offering my encouragement or a listening ear.

Warm regards,
Marcia

sits_inthe_corner · Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 4:00 pm Post subject:

hugs Marcia

I'm glad that you're feeling better. I think you were wise to give yourself some time and see how you do. You may not need methotrexate just yet, and if you find you're doing so well you can always go on it later.

I don't know much about anorexia, but there's enough folks here who do. I hope your therapist is able to give you the support and guidance you need.

Oluwa · Posted: Tue Jun 03, 2008 8:38 pm Post subject:

Marcai...

Wondering how goes life..thinking about you...

Hugs,
Oluwa

Oluwa · Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2008 4:35 am Post subject:

Hey Marcia...

Still looking for you....

How is your weight...stabilizing yet?

It has been a month, how did your monthly test come out?

Do you want to take more about ED's with me on the side. How I battle it. I can share my insight, my blog, my journal with you? With IT, (lupus) and an ED we are alike in that way...

I am here for you..

Hugs,
OLuwa
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