Saysusie....

Oluwa · Posted: Tue Nov 18, 2008 1:28 pm Post subject:

Hi Hatlady...

Thank you for the hug..no scratch needed, yet..anymore. Yep..you are right, the prescribed regime from last weeks appointment is working...

I am so grateful for that bottle....

I was going to put out an APB on your tonight or tomorrow..and here you are...hugs.

Love,
OLuwa.

hatlady · Tiger Joined: 16 Oct 2004 Posts: 864 Location: Illinois

sorry I've been bad!

You are so sweet to worry about me, Oluwa, I appreciate that! I'll try to check in at least once a day if I can.....

Hugs to all - -
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cheryl_v · Posted: Wed Nov 19, 2008 8:27 pm Post subject:

Hi Saysusie, thanks for thinking of me with your pain and emotions. Touched my heart Very Happy

. When my niece lived with me, she busted me with the jar of chocolate. Every saturday nights my hubby watches rented movies in the living room, and I'd take a novel to our room to read. It was our personal retriet night. To relax and do our own thing. Well I sometmes get a strong urge for chocolate, really bad cravings. One night the icecream topping chocolate was all I could find and became part of my saturday night retriet. Never did tell hubby. Was sitting in my room reading a book one saturday night and she snuck in to scare me (takes after her aunt and uncle, we love to do it to the kids Laughing

). Well she seen what I had and melted into her cute little smile, telling me how I was her "favorite aunt". Well how could I resist Very Happy

, of course I let her. She had a novel too it turned out, she thought I was watching tv in my room. Didn't know I was reading too. Turned out we loved the same authors and it became "our" saturday night thing. We would carry 2 spoons and a new jar with books in hand, hubby joked he felt kicked out by double-trouble. Her mum joked you think she was my daughter, not hers. Loved outdoors, music and books like me. Nothing like her own mum. She may have moved out years ago, but we would still do our saturday thing in our own homes and call and catch up on the novels we chose for that night. Saturdays have not been the same in months. I just can't open that jar and now I read in the living room with mp3 and headphones. Even though she hasn't been here on a saturday night for years, those nights now are just not the same. Those memories came back so strong that first weekend after, and still are.

Thanks for letting me say that, it felt so good. I actually smiled with only a few tears this time remembering. Better than the usual crying that happens when I remember. I wanted to remember, but it was hard to make it thru the memory. Thank you, some how you gave that back to me tonight. I do love the banana split thing you two had, thanks for sharing it with me. May we all make it thru the holidays, for whatever reasons we need help in. God Bless us all Very Happy

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Saysusie · Posted: Wed Nov 19, 2008 9:02 pm Post subject:

Cheryl;
I'm glad that you were able to tell the chocolate story with a smile and less tears. Everyone keeps telling me (and I'm sure, you also) that I should remember the "good times". I do, and it is those memories that break my heart the most.
But look, you and I were both able to tell our stories about one of our most memorable times with our girls; and we managed to do it with smiles.
Like I said....we will support one another through this Holiday Season and, see, everyone else is here supporting us too!
We may never eat chocolate syrup or banana splits, but we can try to smile every time that we think about them Laughing

Peace and Blessings
Saysusie
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Saysusie · Posted: Wed Nov 19, 2008 9:05 pm Post subject:

Oluwa

Yes, you did tell me about the new cream and the moisturizer in one of our e-mails. For some reason, I jumped to the conclusion that they were not working. So, I got on the defensive, in your behalf, and was sooooo ready to throttle your doctors!!!
But, I'm glad to hear that they are working! So, hopefully when the bottles are empty.....the rash will be gone. Then we can say "Good Riddance!" Razz

Hope you have a peaceful night!

Peace and Blessings
Saysusie

BTW. My doctor sez for me not to worry too much about the weight loss. I have not gone below the minimum weight for my height. Since I am so tall, she does not see the weight loss as a problem right now. If I lose 5 more pounds, I will be below the minimum and then we will look at adjusting my medication. If the weight loss becomes totally uncontrollable, we will take steps at that time (not sure how much more uncontrollable it can get...but OK!)
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Saysusie · Posted: Wed Nov 19, 2008 9:09 pm Post subject:

Hatlady!

WZUP!!!!!!! I am always happy to see your posts. I know the job has been keeping you busy, but it is good to hear from you!!
I hope that you've been well. I am sorry to hear about your Mother and I know that this Holiday Season will be different and a bit sad. Please know that you are always in our hearts.

Thank you so much for your kind words. I am going to take your advice about trying the rice cream. I did not know that the Soy was probably not giving me the results that I wanted. Thanx!

Hope to see/read you soon!

Peace and Blessings
Saysusie
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cheryl_v · Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2008 5:41 am Post subject:

Hi Saysusie. Yes its true, the good memories are the most painful. I did realize last night that I rather remember and cry than trying not to remember due to the pain in my heart. One step at a time as they say, apparently so true. Thanks again for sharing, I think that's what got me remembering. Its a good day, I feel her smile on me right now. I have no idea why, just do.

Hope eveyone's having a good day!! I feel great today, going to enjoy it while it last. A friend is visiting, one of the kids from long ago I watched when he was young. Was my niece's friend, ironic. Good to see him here, were going to spend the day listening to music and eating and catching up.
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Oluwa · Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2008 11:37 pm Post subject:

Hi you, Dear Saysusie..

Happy Friday..I have insomnia. Slept the day away with Zrytec. My body decided to bust out in hives. Red, hot and eraser size..covering my arms, legs and neck..Whas up with dat? Well, least the trunk rash has left the carcass.

No hives where the Clobex was spread...

By morning you could be five pounds under. I am at a stand still and my regular size pants are tight. Not a good feeling. It could cause a starvation mode...ED.

It has been so cold here..low 30's The lawn in the morning was glazed white. Many mornings lately. Many of my plants fell to winter's cold air. Elephant ears, Ginger...Hibiscus, Hostas...they will return next year. I'll cut them back tomorrow...

My husband lands today, Friday midnight. Wasn't a very productive week for me...and how was yours?

Enjoy the weekend...hugs...
Love,
Oluwa

hatlady · Tiger Joined: 16 Oct 2004 Posts: 864 Location: Illinois

Hi all;

Productive week for me, but too dang busy and a bit frustrating. Some individuals need to be told WHY 17 times, and even when you say "the law says" they STILL ask WHY?!?! So I try to say it again, differently, and not act frustrated. Twisted Evil

Today will be more fun, the work "gang" is going out for lunch, so we'll share some laughter and get away from the hassles for a little while.

Oluwa, you poor thing, first rash, now hives. Saysusie, I hope the rice-cream tastes wonderful and helps you feel better!

It is frosty cold here too - in the 30's today (fahrenheit, for our international friends). I like the cold, easier to stay out of the sun when you're bundled!

We're going into a week of frenzy for some of us, memories for all of us, and changes to traditions for others. Let's take a moment to hold hands around our world here - and give thanks for each other, for this board, for our lives and hopes and dreams.

I'll try to find something today for the Faith and Fellowship board - and I thank you all here as well!
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mnjodette · Posted: Tue Nov 25, 2008 5:02 am Post subject:

Cheryl and Saysusie, you are both in my thoughts this morning - and prayers. Holidays are so filled with memories and family is what they are all about. I know you miss your girls deeply when special days are near. It was so touching to read your special recollections of your times together. Tender hugs to both of you - and may your memories all be warm and happy.

Oluwa, how's the itching this day? Hives fading, I hope. Turkey day soon, and I know you're doing a big meal. Will hubby be home for a while again? It's cold here, and frosty, but warmer than last week (no single digits.) Freezing rain this weekend, but now a dusting of snow. Doesn't look like Thanksgiving, though. Usually, we have a little snow to kick around in - this year, just a touch.

Hatlady, it's good to see your posts. I've been absent myself - not up to par, and not feeling a lot like communicating. Just had to jump back in and reconnect. Hope Thanksgiving gives you a nice chance to wind down.

Jody
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hatlady · Tiger Joined: 16 Oct 2004 Posts: 864 Location: Illinois

Jody - good to see you too!

What a wild time of year. We all have so many memories that threaten to crowd out what happiness there is for THIS year. It is hard sometimes to focus on the present - and the joys it can bring.

For me, this year is bitter with the sweet. No pressure to go to my Mother's for a family gathering - she is lost in Alzheimers, so I'll go down sometime over the weekend and visit for a bit. See my sister, maybe a cousin or two. That's all. I miss my mother - it went so fast. Often with Alzheimers there are good and bad days for a long long time. She was good this summer, only occassionally missing a beat. Now she sometimes doesn't recognize her own daughter - my sister, the one who is there almost daily.

We'll spend the holiday here with my SO's sister and nephew - different, after many years of as many as 65 at a rented hall, or 20 at our dearest friend's house, it is odd to be just 4 around the table. Don't know how to cook that "small!" So there will be leftovers. The sweet part - it will be time to share with just the 4 of us. A chance to visit more than usual, which will be sweet.

Saysusie, my dear friends are now out your way - they moved to San Diego, where their work took them.

I've been busy with work, it is benefits time which means literally hundreds of people filtering through the office asking questions, turning in forms.... so very tired each night. So I've been a bit achy, headachy,but nothing that is unmanageable, thank heaven.

Hugs to all, warmth and fellowship. Be well, and I'll check in again over tho holiday.
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NoodleMom · Labrador Joined: 09 Nov 2007 Posts: 305

Saysusie and Cheryl I am there right with you. My emotions are all over the place. My sweet Hayley was only four when she went home to Jesus. My heart aches so for her. We have tons of videos and pictures. I have not been able to watch the videos or look at the pictures. Its been nine years. She was such a spunky little girl. Not a frilly little girl. She was more of a jeans and t-shirt little girl with her pink baseball cap on backwards and a chunk of hair peeking thru the hole.

When I would take my older daughter to Co-op and clarinet lessons Hayley and I would go to the pet store. We would look at all the animals and talk about them. One day she spied with her little eye a little fishy in a bowl. She says to me oh Mama there is my fishy. Well being the Mama of that precious little girl I bought her that fishy. She named him Pouncer.
I really miss those days.

This time of year is so hard for me. I always get so sad and depressed. I do just enuf for my living children that they are not short changed but my heart is really not in it. Im just waiting for it all to be over.

Oh Hatlady, are you here? Gotta story to tell you. I discovered a while back that Wal-Marts flourescent lights are very bothersome to me. So I decided to wear my hat. I had bought a wide brimmed hat last spring.
Well HubbyMan and I were at Wal-Mart last night and I had my hat on. I wore it all thru the store riding on the scooter. Yea people looked, people stared at me and yea I was a bit self conscious but just carried on with what I was doing. I actually participated with the grocery shopping. Usually if I go I just follow him in the scooter if I even go, which has been a very rare event.
Anyway on with my story. HubbyMan called me the hatlady.
I thought of you immediately and told him about you and that it was because of knowing you and your hats that I got mine.

So did your ears burn last night? Razz

Kasey

hatlady · Tiger Joined: 16 Oct 2004 Posts: 864 Location: Illinois

Oh Casey how funny! Wondered what that warm feeling was around my earlobes last night... Wink

When they give you a weird look, just smile, hold your chin high and scoot right past them.

Hugs to you for your sweet memories of Hayley, every time you walk past a pet store - I'm sure you smile a little and think of that day.

Cheryl, Saysusie, Casey, and all my friends here... Memories are a blessing - finally. Some days they feel like a curse, but the edges finally soften and the warm glow returns. May all your memories bless you this year.
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Saysusie · Posted: Tue Nov 25, 2008 4:43 pm Post subject:

Hi All;
Back from my brief vacation and so glad to be home. Laughing

Cheryl;
I'm with you. Having good days feels so wonderfully productive and we take advantage of those good days as best as we can! I'm happy to hear that you are finding more and more good days!

Sweet Oluwa;
Your rash has become my nemesis! It's like a bad penny that just keeps showing up. I'm glad your hubby is home for a bit, that always seems to brighten your spirits! I'm glad that the rash on the trunk is at least, gone and that there are no hives where your medication was spread. Small incremental successes huh?
I am enjoying the cold weather and trying to stay bundled up as much as I can. We were in Palm Springs over the weekend and it was 82 degrees there! I was glad to get back to cold Victorville Razz

Hope your week is going well so far. Try not to go into the starvation mode...I've been there, done that.....causes more harm than good. Hang in there sweetie and know that I am here for you.

MnJodette;
Thank you, always, for your kind words, your thoughts and your prayers. I truly appreciate the tender hugs Very Happy

NoodleMom:
I know exactly how you feel when you say you just want the Holidays to be over with. It does not matter how many years we've had with our much loved ones, the hole in our lives is just as big if it were three years or twenty-four years. We thoroughly and relentlessly miss them!
So, it is quite normal for our emotions to be all over the place right now. Just know that we understand and that we hold each other up in our hearts, in our thoughts and in our prayers. I hope that your memories continue to make you smile.

Peace and Blessings Everyone
Saysusie
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cheryl_v · Posted: Tue Nov 25, 2008 8:47 pm Post subject:

Thanks Jody and Casey and Saysusie. Sorry for your pain as well Casey, such a young age. Memories are painful and wonderful at the same time. We will get thru this, quickly I hope.

Hoping everyone is having a good thanksgiving week. May we all have good memories this week and make it thru fine. Thinking of all of you guys and wishing you well Very Happy

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